Sometimes it’s hard just sitting here learning music… For a number of reasons, but one in particular has dragged itself to the surface here recently.

I like listening to music, but I can’t listen to music and practice at the same time. I’ve been feeling pretty unmotivated lately, because I just want to sit here and listen to music. It’s like a double-edged knife. I like music and I like playing music, so it’s my career. But I can’t just sit and listen to music, because I have to keep practicing.

I hate how things are right now. I’ll set aside some time to listen to some music, you know, to try and find something new. But then I’ll finding myself just sitting here with a grimace on my face, just waiting a few seconds or a minute to see if something happens and then just going to the next track! I’ve even skipped around through tracks to see if there’s anything that immediately grabs me, and if not just dumping it!

That’s not how you listen to music! And I hate that all I’m looking for are gems, when not every piece is supposed to be!

So, I’ve been kinda down and unmotivated today. Haven’t done anything. Originally I was going to blame being sore on it, but that’d be a lie.

Didn’t have anything to upload yesterday, won’t have anything tonight, almost positive I won’t have anything tomorrow. And probably not the day after either.

Sorry.