You’re so hard on yourself! I mean, everyone needs some motivation in order to improve but you really take it farther than that. I went back the other day through some of your older drawings and I thought they were nice!

1) I’ll admit that I can’t remember the last time I had a conversation about poop, but it’s better than constantly getting “How was your day?” and “What did you eat for dinner?”

You know? Ask me a real question that doesn’t involve me having to think back minute-by-minute on what I did during the day.

2) I’m just being realistic.

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I liked this one. To tell the truth I felt bad when I uploaded it because I spent so much time on it and… it got no likes. No comments. Not a kiss-my-[omitted]. Nothing. It might as well have never happened. I thought I was doing something nice for a little filly and… no one cared one way or the other.

I always try to encourage other ponies; you’ve all so talented and it’s… It’s just been an absolute pleasure to watch each of you improve, day by day. I knew you all could. But I find it hard to encourage myself sometimes. I’m not really that lazy. I’m just so tired of… Not even failing. Just… not mattering. Not making any difference. Not making any impact. If I died today, the only thing I’d ever really be was a tragedy. All I can do is encourage others. But at the end of the day, that doesn’t really amount to anything tangible.

And no, I’m not asking for encouragement, or a lecture about how important I am and I shouldn’t feel that way. I know someponies care about me. You just brought it up, and… [sigh] that’s how I feel.