Yes… I suppose that’s true, in a way.
Just what one needs to clear the mind.
And no pony worry about me. W-I’m just fine. Or I will be, once I calm down some more.
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That’s exactly what’s going on.
You are a clever little investigator, aren’t you?
Now, with that solved, let’s hear no more of the matter.
I don’t suppose you can really be blamed.
I’m sure this will all blow over, given time.
You really are a sweet little bear.
But don’t worry about L-me. I’m much more resilient than I look.
What…?
But…
And I…
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[Speech detection has timed out. Ending recording.]
You want to have this out right now? With me sick as [omitted] and medicated into a haze? You disappear week after week and you choose now to press me? Fine.
I don’t know what the [omitted] I want anymore! I thought I did. I was positive for an eternity. But I don’t know anymore…
The idea of just traveling with a band from place to place, without a care in the world for anything… It was an escape. It was an escape from the reality that I’m stuck here. Or stuck there. Or wherever I’m assigned to go!
I never wanted to leave the castle! I was told months in advance about being relocated… And it still came too soon! I never wanted to come to Ponyville! I… I hated this place! And that escape? That little notion of abandoning it all and getting out? That’s what kept me going!
But… Things changed… I have friends now… Real ones. Or, at least I hope real ones… And Sweetie Belle. How could I ever leave her? She’s my life now… She reminds me so much of myself… I have to make sure things turn out different! I can’t let her live through the horrors I faced!
And Krastos… he isn’t just a nice bear, he’s a family man! I’ve seen him with foals and… [sniff] I wish I could be like that… I’ll be honest, I don’t love him as much as I’ve loved in the past. But I feel like I can! I really do! Please don’t take this the wrong way, Krastos… You make me feel… like… like-
[Cough] [Cough]
Like the world isn’t such a dark place…
But you? Now you’re a teacher here in Ponyville now? You actually live here now? I wouldn’t ever have to wake up and you’d be gone?
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Now that I could actually be with you… I don’t know that I want to… I don’t know that I ever wanted to… You were always perfect to me. The perfect escape. But now I don’t want to leave, and you couldn’t take me if I did…
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It’s not fair… It’s not fair to me, and it’s not fair to you…
[Sniff]
That night… When I looked out the open window to the courtyard far below? It was you. That perfect escape is what I held on to. You’re the one that steadied my nerves… You’re the reason I’m here today.
[Sob]
And I’ll never be able to thank you enough for it… You really are perfect…
[Sniff]
But I can’t have you… I could never love you like a pony. You’d always be that thing; that idea that saved my life. I could never, and can never find any fault in you…
And that’s not love… That’s worship…
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I’m sorry…
Of course, Sweetie!
I’m glad you enjoy his company so much to invite him yourself!
I’ve heard no such thing, at any point in time, and I’d appreciate it if you didn’t repeat that.
Bon-Bon treats Sweetie just like she does Tootsie, like she’s her own foal.
You’re going to come back and everything’s going to be just like you left it.
Besides, Bon-Bon’s taking care of me.
Note: Poochie Died On The Way Back To His Home Planet.

That’s kinda cool.
Good luck. Maybe I’ll be better by the time you get back.
‘Cause you have to come back.
I’m not sure how that would work, but maybe.
This is always awkward…
Thank you for wishing me well.