1 & 2) It’s down. No idea how I’m going to sleep through this headache tonight, though.

3) You’ll just have to accept that some fights have to be done alone. But I do thank you for the moral support. I haven’t chosen my words very well, but it does help.

4) Hateful ponies that don’t deserve the lives they’re willing to wretch away from the innocent.

5) I understand. I apologize.

1) You have successfully missed the point completely.

Krastos was shot. And it wasn’t on accident.

2) Things like this are why you need to invest in me less. You care too much and it’s hurting you.

1) …

You do realize he has a bullet sitting in his body right now because it was more dangerous to remove it than to just leave it there, right?

2) I can’t promise that. I’ll try not to let it become so public. Only made things worse.

1) Everything is fine. Kr-Boscov is here right now. I’m okay. Just some bad memories I take lengths to avoid.

2) Considering the hate he sometimes receives, that kind of pony must be more common than you think. But again, he’s here right now.

3) Song lyrics.

4) You want healthy? How about memories so horrifying that every time you really think about them since they day they were burned into your mind you’re nauseated to the point of vomiting?

5) Just sitting here with my… uh… bearfriend.

6) How about you live in a cage for the next three years then get thrown to a hyena and see what it’s like to live and die in torment all to feed another creature in the most unnecessary way possible?

7) See the previous response.

Nonsense. Thinking is not important! As long as you feel good.

1)

[Snort]

2) No no. That’s not going to happen. I can keep it together; I promise.

3) Nothing! Everything’s fine!

4) Gals in white dresses with blue satin sashes! Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes! Silver white winters that melt into springs! These are a few of my favorite things!

5) No. Shhhh! That’s not good. That’s bad. I’m responsible. Shhh! Stop talking.

I know you’re all worried. And I’m sorry… I never should have logged on today. I’m sorry but I can’t. I’m sorry. But I can’t. You can’t hear the screams. You can’t see the life fade from their eyes.

I can’t take it. But it’ll go away and everything will be fine again! Just like it always is! I just need a little help to forget.

…

Boscov… I don’t want you to see me like this.

…

Please stop knocking…

It…

[Sniff]

It hurts…

The bear knows nothing! Alcohol is the only thing for you to be comfy!

But always drink in moderation, foals. Drinking too much is bad for you. It kills your brain. And you need that to think.

You are a loud bear today.

Shhhhhhh…

It’s okay. It’ll pass and I won’t have to think about it again for a while. Then I won’t have to cry…

curled up in a ball…

begging for the screams to stop…

…

[Glug] [Glug] [Glug]

Sorry. We’re in a good mood today! Woo~!

Now now, you’re trying to take advantage of little ol’ me. Naughty naughty.

I’m a little more careful than that. I wish I could focus more on writing, though. My mind keep wondering and winding.

…

Why do wind and wind spell the same?

1) You are sooo good at rhyming. Like a poet. Are you a poet?

Not that I’m attracted to that. That’d be shallow. Besides, I have my fuzzy wuzzy was-a-bear and his sexy fur. He is so fine. I want to boop him on the nose.

Is that a word?

2) It’s a type of argument. It has something to do with-… No… No that’s a slippery slope. I mean, that’s not a slippery slope, it’s…

Uh…

Spoonman is a song.

Me too, Strawman.

Oh my Cels! Have you ever heard Spoonman?! It’s almost like your name!

1) [Giggle] But wouldn’t it be easier if it was?

2)

3) Memories. Horrible, vivid, loud memories.

And that means it’s time for Lyra to drink like a fish until she can go to sleep.

And since she has to write today, because she’s behind her schedule, it also means she can’t deal with a hangover today. So she’s drunk right now.

Lyra, I mean.

4) It’s not the same. You got a family, and then you got a family. The family isn’t the same as the family, even if it serves the same function as the family.

I know I have a family, but it’s not a family.

I just never thought about it before, I guess. That probably makes me a complete idiot.

I was just… so looking forward to it. Meeting a family that doesn’t hate me, or judge me. That I wouldn’t have to try and impress. People that were interested in me and I was interested in them and I could just be myself and not have to think about-…

…

Think about anything bad…

But whenever it happens, it’ll just be another-…

…

[Sniff] And I guess it’ll be my fault. My fault for feeling so strongly about it. For having-

…

…

Oh Celestia it’s coming back again…

Excuse me…

1) Humans are weird.

2) No one. The concept of worth is meaningless. All we ever do is take what we can’t give back.

3) Do I even have a future?

I don’t care about the game… Patriots I guess.

4) It’s in my request folder. I don’t know when I’ll get to it.

…

I…

…

..

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I’ve been over this. He doesn’t.

I wouldn’t have ever tried dating him if he did.